I'm currently working on finding a sense of steadiness in my work life, social life, city life, suburb life, love life and writing life.
I started a new job a couple of weeks ago and I'm still getting used to my new routine. While I'm enjoying the new opportunity, the division between commuting, early mornings, skyscrapers, subways, home-cooked meals, events, dates and late night everything has taken its toll.
I know I haven't given my all to Not A Model lately and it does not leave a good taste in my mouth.
After a long day of work at a desk, I find it difficult to come home and sit at a computer and write something inspiring. However, when I see my posts becoming less and less frequent, I feel guilty.
I'm trying to keep it all together. I'm trying to schedule every important person and event in my life, while trying to remember to keep my sanity.
On Friday, I debated skipping a party I was invited to. It was the 1 year anniversary of the photography studio Hermann & Audrey. How could I say no to Stefania? If you read this blog regularly, you can see her photography everywhere (*ahem logo) and I always support the other photographers (Cory, Steve, Javier, Jalani) and I enjoy their events.
So I sucked it up.
I went to work during the day in the city, went back home to the suburbs, swiped some liquid liner on my lids, zipped up my knee high boots, grabbed a friend and drove back to the city at night. Was I exhausted? Sure. Was I happy I went? Most definitely. Besides, aren't Saturdays for sleeping in?
[Me marveling at Javier Lovera's beautiful photography - credit: Kristina Dhillon]
Lately, my laughter isn't as frequent, but I know I'm just finding my way like everyone else.
Writing is my passion. I love my readers and I still have so much left to say, capture, write and share. It won't always be perfect, but I want to keep this going for as long as it makes me happy.
My heart lies with a pen and a message. Hope you're still listening.