November 7, 2010

Hey Not A Model, Tell Me Where Have You Been?

Let's talk balance. 

I'm currently working on finding a sense of steadiness in my work life, social life, city life, suburb life, love life and writing life.

I started a new job a couple of weeks ago and I'm still getting used to my new routine. While I'm enjoying the new opportunity, the division between commuting, early mornings, skyscrapers, subways, home-cooked meals, events, dates and late night everything has taken its toll.

I know I haven't given my all to Not A Model lately and it does not leave a good taste in my mouth.

After a long day of work at a desk, I find it difficult to come home and sit at a computer and write something inspiring. However, when I see my posts becoming less and less frequent, I feel guilty.

I'm trying to keep it all together. I'm trying to schedule every important person and event in my life, while trying to remember to keep my sanity.

On Friday, I debated skipping a party I was invited to. It was the 1 year anniversary of the photography studio Hermann & Audrey. How could I say no to Stefania? If you read this blog regularly, you can see her photography everywhere (*ahem logo) and I always support the other photographers (Cory, Steve, Javier, Jalani) and I enjoy their events.

So I sucked it up.

I went to work during the day in the city, went back home to the suburbs, swiped some liquid liner on my lids, zipped up my knee high boots, grabbed a friend and drove back to the city at night. Was I exhausted? Sure. Was I happy I went? Most definitely. Besides, aren't Saturdays for sleeping in?

 [Me marveling at Javier Lovera's beautiful photography - credit: Kristina Dhillon]

"In today's society we sometimes forget to balance our hearts and our heads; this is the reason we stop laughing." -Yakov Smirnoff

Lately, my laughter isn't as frequent, but I know I'm just finding my way like everyone else.

Writing is my passion. I love my readers and I still have so much left to say, capture, write and share. It won't always be perfect, but I want to keep this going for as long as it makes me happy.

My heart lies with a pen and a message. Hope you're still listening.


  1. I miss you :( But at least I'm seeing you back on the blog! :) Try and find time for me this week lady!

  2. It's definitely hard to find that balance between work, personal life and blog life, but it gets easier. I hear the secret is to schedule posting into your week (wednesdays and sundays are posting days, e.g.) so you will set aside time to do something you love. I'm still trying to stick to that myself, but maybe it will work for you!

    I look forward to every post you write :)

  3. Thanks for the kind words Dallas!

    I like the idea of planning when I write and sticking to it!

  4. We all go through crazy periods in our life. Working crazy hours, coming home and going out only to have to wake up early the next morning esp if you work downtown. By Friday you are completely exhausted but of course you have plans again. Maybe you sleep in on saturday but you have to run all the errands you couldn't do during the week because of your crazy job and then you get ready for another late night out. You hope you have some relaxation on Sunday but there is usually something going on whether its family or other stuff. Then you finally go to sleep only to wake up to the crazy 5 day work week again. Most of us have been there but I think when we're older (yes older than me) we will look back at that time as one of the best times of our lives.
    Just enjoy each day because it goes by fast. Next thing you know you are on maternity leave with your first child living the next best part of your life! And always make time to write! Its just too good. Xoxo

  5. Balance? You mean there's an alternative to stumbling around life like a drunkard with an overbearing appointment calendar?!